2026 Mission Statement: How I'm Moving Forward

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Egypt Lake, Alberta, August 2025 by Nicholas Fournie

Dear Reader,

As this year comes to a close, I find myself needing to write to you from a far more honest place than I have allowed myself before.

At the beginning of 2025, I created an online platform called BOMISO with the intention of offering resources for the body, mind, and soul. I imagined yoga classes, life coaching, online programs, meditation circles in person and on Insight Timer. I devoted myself to it for months... creating content, recording, editing, marketing... pouring all of my energy into this vision without seeing a return. Somewhere in the process, I realized I couldn’t keep moving forward in the way I was, but I also didn’t want to abandon it completely. There is still something real there, but it needs to be truer to who I actually am.

While I was building BOMISO, I kept trying to smooth out my edges. I felt pressure to be more marketable, more polished, more “worthy” of someone clicking “book now.” To be spiritual enough, soft enough, wise enough. Underneath all of that was a simple fact: I oscillate between wanting to be a spiritual teacher and wanting to be a materialist who loves luxury and beautiful things. I am not perfect, and I cannot pretend to be. At this point, I can say clearly that I officially let go of the persona of “spiritual teacher.” I don’t want that costume anymore, even though the longing that created it came from a very deep and sincere place.

The roots go back a long way. When I was younger, I was already prone to existential questions that made me feel out of step with the world. Then, in my early twenties, my life split. On one side, I was in Toronto studying fashion, modelling, doing photoshoots and runways, and beginning to taste that world of aesthetics and glamour. On the other side, my father, a deeply materialistic man who valued money and success, was dying of cancer. I was still surrounded by gossip and people positioning themselves for their “successful adult lives,” while watching my dad renounce, in his own way, the very values he had lived by. In the shock of that, I reacted. I walked away from fashion, from that material life, and I moved to the mountains of Panama.

There, I studied theology online during COVID times. I immersed myself in meditation and spiritual practice. I did all the “right” things a spiritual person might do, and yet I was not happy. I wasn’t happy in Panama. I wasn’t happy in theology classrooms. I often felt like I was forcing spirituality onto myself because it seemed more noble than wanting a beautiful wardrobe or a nice apartment. As a result, I never built a solid material foundation. I worked and worked and kept changing paths, changing my mind, starting over. I looked up one day and realized: for all my effort, I didn’t have much to stand on.

That is why I am writing this now, from a place that is both tender and a little raw. I don’t want to give up on everything I have built or learned. I don’t want to pretend the last ten years didn’t happen. But I also don’t want to keep packaging myself as a perfectly serene, spiritually enlightened brand. This letter is my way of saying: I swing, and I swing hard, between renunciation and desire, between the monastery and the mall, between wanting to be a wise guide and wanting to wear a beautiful outfit and not feel guilty about it.

As BOMISO came crashing down, I realized that I have been trying to live off spirituality without having the material foundation I need to approach it freely. I thought that if I tried hard enough, if I meditated long enough, if I branded myself well enough, spirituality could be my entire livelihood and identity. Today, I know I don’t want that. I don’t want to live off the money spirituality can pay me, and I don’t want to be perceived as a spiritual authority. I want to be honest with myself about my desires instead of performing virtue for the internet.

For most of my life, I’ve responded to discomfort by renouncing things (desire, money, ambition, beauty) often before I ever really had them. There is a certain nobility in stepping away from excess; there is also a kind of self-abandonment in rejecting what you have not even allowed yourself to build. I am still young. I haven’t created the kind of grounded material life that would make renunciation meaningful, and I’m finally admitting that to myself.

As I look around, it seems there are at least two broad kinds of people: those who have a solid material foundation and need to remember their soul, and those who have done a lot of spiritual work but are standing on very shaky ground in the physical world. Right now, I belong to the second group. I have spent many years studying theology, psychology, meditation, and contemplative practice. I have trained, read, prayed, sat on cushions, and gone on retreats. I have tools that can help people reconnect to themselves, and I still want to share them. But my priority in this season is to build material stability for myself: income, savings, a body that feels strong, a life that feels held.

So here is what this platform will be going forward: a place where both sides of me are allowed to exist. I will be curating and creating resources for people like me who may have a spiritual foundation but need help with mindset, follow-through, and building practical stability. I will also share practices, reflections, and tools for those who already have financial security and feel the quiet ache for something more soulful. Some offerings will be more grounded and practical; others will be more contemplative. The balance will shift as I do.

I need to be equally transparent about who I am within all this. I am not a spiritual teacher, even though I am trained and experienced in spiritual things. I am a human being who likes nice clothes, who enjoys luxury, who wants more material beauty in his life. I’m done pretending that I’m above wanting those things. False renunciation has never served me, and it certainly doesn’t serve you when I pretend. I would rather be a flawed, honest person in public than a polished illusion.

I feel genuinely embarrassed sometimes by how often I change, how many times I’ve redesigned my website, how many identities I have tried on in public. We live in a time when our lives unfold on screens, and I have earnestly tried to share my journey with you, even as it twists and turns. My only promise is this: what you see here is a vulnerable, true impression of where I am right now. It will change. So will I.

I am not perfect. I am not above money, or confusion, or longing, or contradiction. I am a person in process. If my honesty permits even one other person to stop pretending, to admit their own swings between spirit and matter, between virtue and desire, then this will have been worth it. If something in what I offer resonates with you, but money is a barrier, please reach out. This space is not, at this moment, about profit. It is about sharing the path as it is, not as it “should” be.

If you recognize yourself in any of this tension, you are welcome to stay, to read, to walk alongside me for as long as it feels right. This is where I am as this year closes: no longer trying to choose between materialism and spirituality, but learning, imperfectly, how to hold both in two open hands.

Nicholas

Article Summary: "A Year-End Update, December 2025" by Nicholas Fournie

1. I share honestly about creating BOMISO, pouring months into building a spiritual brand, and realizing I was shaping myself into something polished and perfect instead of fully authentic.

2. I trace how my dad’s death, after a life focused on money and success, pushed me to reject materialism, leave fashion, move to Panama, and immerse myself in theology and meditation, only to discover I wasn’t truly happy there either.

3. I admit that I swing between spiritual renunciation and a real love of luxury, beauty, and material comfort, and I consciously step away from the role and persona of “spiritual teacher.”

4. I explain that my platform will now hold both spirituality and material life, offering resources for people who either need more material stability or more soul, without pretending that I am above money, struggle, or change.

5. I commit to showing up as a person in process, creating courses and one-on-one support from a grounded place, and I invite readers to journey with me as I learn to hold both spirit and matter with honesty and grace.